Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Barbara passed away last night












This is Barbara, Brian and I just before he went to his senior prom in June 2000. I will be back.

79 comments:

XO said...

You've been in my thoughts. I hope you and your son are as okay as you can be during this difficult time. Sending you hugs... and if you email me your address I'll ship you some cookies. =)

Anonymous said...

my condolences.

Robin said...

Peace be with you.

Megan said...

My thoughts are with you. When you are able, speak your mind and we will listen.

Natalie said...

You'll be in my prayers.. I know you will miss her.. I don't want to throw around cliches like "she's not in pain anymore" so I won't say anything more. You know she misses you and your son, too.

Take care of yourselves.

Libby said...

i'm so sorry, tony, i know you & your son are in real pain right now, we'll understand if you can't be here for awhile...peace to you both.
LibbY!

Wenchy said...

I wish you peace. I am so sorry.

Marc said...

i cant tell you how sorry i am about that...

Unknown said...

((((hugs)))) BTE

Love, Light and Peace to you and your loved ones at this darkest hour.

-kb

Julie said...

Lots and lots of Love and healing to you for a very long time

Summer said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I'm so sorry.

She's still alive in your heart. Have faith that you'll see her again.

sandegaye said...

Tony, may angels surround you & Brian & being healing to your hearts.
Barbara forever lives in your hearts & minds..

MG said...

(((HUGS)), you will be in all our thoughts today

Mara said...

((hugs))
Ti voglio bene mio angelo.

Mara

Stephanie said...

My sympathy to you! You are in my thoughts!!

Tequila Red said...

I am so sorry.

HS said...

My prayers are with you BTE :(

Cathy said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

The Funky Bee said...

thinking of you and your family. My deepest condolences are with you.

lecram sinun said...

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I know this loss is tough... but I'm sure you'll soon smile at the wonders you shared together.

Tracey said...

May God bless you and your family during this difficult time.

Moosekahl said...

My thoughts and prayers with you and your family. May the sorrow at the immediate lost turn to joy in the memories you shared with your wife.

Julie said...

I'm sorry...

katehopeeden said...

I lost my best friend in January... nothing hurt like that did.
I am so very sorry for your loss.
~K

Lil Bit said...

Saddened to hear of your loss.

Calvin said...

no words i can say now will make it easier.. am so sorry.

our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

... said...

sweetie i'm so sorry for your loss, but i know both of you have been soffering for a long time now - and hopefully some healing can begin. *cyber hugs*

bricotrout said...

condolences my man. condolences.

Margaret said...

huge hugs to you...

wishing you and yours -

peace...

Tammy said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Big blog (((((((HUG))))))) to you.

The Smoking Redhead said...

I will keep you in my prayers. I know words are inadequate at a time like this but my thoughts are with you.

*Monica said...

This is my first visit here after finding you through HNT. I am incredibly sorry to hear about your wife. I wish you much peace.

Jillian said...

My prayers are with you and your family!

wopanese said...

I feel your pain and share in your grief. My lady friend lost her mother recently and I posted this just a few days ago in my blog. I was told to send it on to you. I hope in some way, however small, it helps, though I don't know you at all except as a fellow human on this journey we all share...
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There are people you know, people you call acquaintances, some you call friend. Some there are you hope might be more, and some you have lost along the way. There are family members you could never imagine being without, and perhaps some you wish you never had to see. Some are the type that always brighten your day, where others might always bring you down. Some warm your heart. Some chill you to the bone. Some remind them of yourself. Some are so different, you wonder how you came to know them or how these related genes made that happen. Some bring the past to you. Others press you into the future. And there are those that are with you. And sometimes those that you lose...

They lost their mother late last week and the memorial services were held Monday. I always knew I was the sensitive one, but this one struck close to home. It has been a rough week and my chin is held high, knowing that family and friends are truly what make this life worth living, or at least make it passable from high to low, and all the points between. My entries are going to be a little less regular for a while, methinks, but I appreciate all those who drop by and visit. For now, I leave you with the words of Ursula K. LeGuin, who wrote a little series of this fabled place known as Earthsea, that I enjoyed immensely in the days of my youth. This little poem always struck me as so simple, yet so true.

Only in silence the word,
only in dark the light,
only in dying life:
bright the hawk's flight
on the empty sky

-- The Creation of Ea

I didn't write it. I just know it's true. Peace, happiness, and blessings on all of you and all of them.

Redhead Editor said...

May your dear wife rest in peace and may light perpetual shine upon her.

Awna said...

I am so sorry...
really and truely...
I wish I had some magic words...
of course I don't.
Our thoughts and prayers are with you!

Samantha Alice said...

I don't even know you, I just coincidentally looked at Osbasso's post today and maybe it was fate... I'm so very sorry. We lost one of our best friends to a glioblastoma multiforme on July 7 - he survived one year and one week. I read your post from ~Oct 3 - give yourself time to cry. Cry all you want, vent all you want, do whatever you have to do to get through and help your son through... It's a horrible disease. I changed my friend's diapers, I held him while he seized, I held his hand for hours and got drunk with his wife and wondered where everybody had gone from their lives... I'm so sorry your local friends weren't brave enough to face her cancer every day... you're not alone...

Kristina said...

I am so sorry for your loss... many hugs to you and yours you will all be in my thoughts and prayers.. GOD Bless

Anonymous said...

God Bless.

Lee Ann said...

I am new in the HNT family. I am so sorry for your loss.

S said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that you can come back and laugh with us soon!
Blessings!
Susie

min said...

My condolences to you and your family, Tony. I'll be thinking of you..

Unknown said...

My prayers are with you and your family! God Bless!

MomThatsNuts said...

So sorry for your loss. Many prayers and hugs out your way...
I hope you and your family find some peace and comfort at this time...

Mom

Ian said...

Hi Tony, so very sorry to hear this news. My thoughts go out to you and Brian at this melancholy time.

•♥•m•♥• said...

I'm so sorry .....so sorry....
((((hugs)))) I've lit some incense in Barbara's honor this eve.....M

Yankeebob said...

I just saw the sad news over at Osbasso's place. I'm very sorry for your loss.

God Bless.

sojourness said...

Very very sorry to hear. You and yours are in my thoughts.

Tess said...

I am so very sorry for your loss.

My friend who just turned 50 is suffering from this disease and I may heart just aches for her and for you and your family.

Please be well.

Crystal said...

So very sorry. You're in my prayers and thoughts.

tango jellybean said...

Just found you when you stopped by my blog. I hope whenever you need a laugh, you'll find one. I'm sorry for your loss and I wish you strength and peace.

Rose-Colored Beer Goggles said...

There are no words to help you or your son feel better at a time like this. I see happiness and love in the photos here... I hope those memories will bring you comfort. You're in my prayers.

Sasha said...

i'm sorry for your loss. your family is in my prayers...

chase said...

So sorry for your loss. My daughters father died of cancer, it was difficult ot say the least, my prayers are with you.

KellyKline said...

Just wanted you to know that you are in a lot of people's thoughts and prayers, mine included.

PlatinumGirl said...

My condolences. Death is always hard, whether or not it's expected. Take care.

Michelle said...

I'm so sorry Tony. I will be thinking of you and yours.

Stephanie said...

I am so sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you.

Px said...

my thoughts are with you at this time
be strong

Manblogger641 said...

You will see her again. This is only a temporary parting. My thoughts and prayers are with you. When my father passed two years ago I knew someday I will get to see him again. That took some of the hurt away that I had been feeling. I hope in some way that thought helps you and your son.
Peace...
Bill

Unknown said...

I am so sad for you. Hang in there sir. I am sure you have some great memories that make you smile.

Erin M said...

Prayers for peace in your heart

Blonde said...

Tony,

I am so sorry for your loss.

I wish you and your family peace at this time. I am here for you and understand your loss and pain.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

HappyKap said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I am choked up even trying to imagine what you're going through. I think you are a wonderful man and I am sending the most positive thoughts I can. I am so sorry.

Anonymous said...

My thoughts are with you.

"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal."

Tim said...

best wishes.

XO said...

Just wanted to check back in and say I hope you're doing okay. I can't imagine how difficult this time must be for you and your son, so know that you're in my thoughts. *hugs*

me said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss. With condolences...

Heather said...

I am so sorry for your loss BTE. I hope it is a great comfort that she is in pain no more and that your memories will last forever. My thoughts are with you.

Handsome B. Wonderful said...

Tony, I do not know you but I heard about the loss of your wife from Osbasso. I wanted to offer you and your family my sincere compassion and good wishes. Take care.

Travis said...

God bless you and your son, I hope that you will find some comfort from your friend and family in this hard time.

Tish said...

vSo sorry to hear about your loss. I will be praying for you.

Monalicious said...

My thoughts are with you. I'll send prayers your way.

Angela said...

They that love beyond the world cannot be separated by it. Death cannot kill what never dies.

- William Penn

God Bless.

Angela

duff said...

i heard about your loss through osbasso's site.

you have my deepest condolences.

Elizabeth said...

Sorry to hear about your loss, she sounds like she was an absolutely wonderful woman! I'll say a prayer for you!

Anonymous said...

I am very sorry to hear about your loss. My heart goes out you. Take care. You are in my thoughts.

Anonymous said...

My heart is most certainly with you. I wish you and your family peace.

Mike in Nashville

Anonymous said...

I sorry to hear this

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
(Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die!